I guess I fancy my self a comedian. I wish life would be just like a stand-up act, where you can say whatever you feel like without consequences.

I guess I am in that kamikaze mode again, which seems to be cyclic as every now and then I self-sabotage everything.

I felt it on friday, when I was trying to get my italian friends to go clubbing. Should be easy enough right? except they looked at me and actually said ” we are not in the 90s” like, they never heard any good Tiesto, or Avicii or Guetta or Alok or whomever is DJing now. My friends are 90 years old!

The reaction they got from me was crazy, to make them understand that I didn’t mean Travolta style I had to go to the opposite, so I said “you know, like a rave, with extasy and stuff”. they did not get my sarcasm, they did not find it funny.

Bottom line, I think they will not speak to me again…

Second bottom line, I am growing bored and need some crazy in my life again